dinonsaur baby

Everytime I open my blog and I look at the baby ticker. I just can't help but think that is a really ugly baby dinosaur. It really does look like a dinosaur though. I know it will get cuter eventually.
So here's to deal. I am sick. I am not throwing up yet, but I am a fighter and I won't throw up till I absolutely can't physically keep it in anymore. I have found if I keep myself busy then it helps, it makes it so I don't have as much time to think about my food coming out of my mouth. So I am blogging.
I am scared about this baby. I am scared about the birth and the heartburn. That is the worst parts. I am excited for the sickness to end and for the 5th month. That is my favorite month. I feel great I am not to big, but big enough that I look pregnant, and I know what I am having so it is so much fun to look at all of the baby stuff. That I love..

This baby did come as some what of a surprise. We had talked about having another one, but we weren't "trying". It took me a year to get pregnant with Reed so I just figured it would take a little while for our next one too. Well I had decided that I wanted to wait a few more months to try so that it would be born in the summer time. It would make it a lot easier on family and anyone that wanted to visit, and on Jake since he is in school now. So I wanted to hold off. Apparently that is all I ever had to was try to avoid getting pregnant and I will. So April 7th is the due date. Just in line with the rest of the family's birthdays. we have 2 on the 2nd, 1 on the third, 2 on the 5th, and 1 on the sixth of April. We are really excited, nervous and scared on what is to come, but can't wait. Everything will work out and I am sure that having another child will be so amazing. We love Reed so much and he has changed our lives more than we could have ever imagined. I can't wait to see what this one has in store for us!

I just can't keep it a secret anymore. Lets face it I can't keep secrets very long. AND I am so sick already and I need to talk about it!

missing..

I am missing my baby right now. I need a big slobbery kiss..

Grandma has had you long enough. Time for you to come home, even if you like it better there.
Love, Mom

Family Reunion

Freedom Ring

4th of July was great! We had a great time. We went to our little town parade. Little meaning it lasted for 10 min. It was fun though. They threw candy and Reed got 1 sucker and was so happy and it was good because all the other kids were going crazy over the candy and would have punched Reed in the face for it. Haha, but it was fun to watch.
Reed also competed in the baby race. He lost. He walked to steps and stopped and couldn't figure out what was going on.

Then Later that evening we went over to St. George to all the fun stuff there. He played on the bounce houses and screamed when we had to leave. He didn't care for the fireworks though. Not scared just not interested. To many things to do. He is just a busy guy!

That may look like the face of happiness, but it is the face of anger. He was so mad that we were making him leave. He is screaming as loud as he could in this picture.

Also My sister Jessica is getting married and we found these great necklaces online and they wanted like $25 a piece. So I used to make jewelry in high school so I thought I would give it a go. I think they turned out great! What do you think???

fun, sun, and mud!

We went outside the other day to play and they had been watering the lawn at the park across the street. Aparently ALL day, because there were huge mud puddles. So I decided to let him go crazy! He was in HEAVEN!

He would barely even look up at us to get a picture he was having so much fun.

All of our feets

We got to go camping for a night over memorial weekend. It was so fun. It was nice to just sit in the sun and have fun. We camped right on the beach and got to try out our tent trailer that my parents gave us. It was so nice to just get out. We got Reed a life jacket, so he could go in the water and I didn't have to worry about him drowning all the time. He did so good. He didn't get that deep in the water because it was cold. 

So Tired from all the swimming.

He even says cheese when he smiles. 

what am I feeling..

I'm not really a person to be able to write down what I am thinking. I just skip around and it just makes it feel like I never put any thought into it. I have never been good at writing english papers and when I did write a decent one it took me a REALLY long time. I just don't know how to express in detail what I am trying to say. I am kind of tug a war with myself right now. I keep going back and forth about what to do with myself. 
I am a working Mom. I have to work right now. There is no getting over that. We have to have that income, especially now with how jake can't find a good job ( we are going on 4 new jobs in the last year) I want to have savings, I want to be completely out of debt, I don't like where we are financially. I have been trying to think of ways to earn extra money and that I can still do working full time, and being a full time mom. 
Jake's new job is better, he does make more $, and we don't pay as much day care, so that is really going to help. I guess I haven't seen the money yet, so I don't believe it is going to be there. I just feel lost right now. I want a quick fix and its not coming. 
there is also so many things going on with jobs that I am being looked at that would really make the money situation a lot better, there is an online job that I could do at night, and a different job that I applied for that would pay more, but I don't want to get my hopes up for anything because I have been let down so much this year I can't even begin to tell you. 
I really think that is my problem. I can't get excited over anything because not to much has gone as planned. 
I really want to stay home with my baby. I did get to stay home with him for 6 months and had a love hate relationship with it. I love going to work, and being part of something else, but I love staying home with Reed, I feel like staying home is harder sometimes. I have to have the motivation to do a thankless job. not my favorite
I like my job right now, they think that I am so smart and that I can pretty much do anything. :)
It nice to feel needed. 
but at the same time I want to have more kids, I don't want Reed and the next child to be to far apart, and it took me a year to get pregnant with Reed so I just don't know how to plan this out. If I don't get pregnant for another year they will be over 3 years apart. what to do. I do not know. I probably should just listen to the my own advise on the visiting teaching lesson I gave this month and have patience. And you have to have faith to have patience. I must be lacking in the faith department. 
I think I just need some sunshine. 
that always makes me feel better. swimming Saturday anyone?? noon?

P.S. Jake starts school on Tuesday! I can't wait to get him graduated! (its far away, but at least we are making progress)